He came yesterday, checked out a few things, questioned me few things which i never even understood what he was trying to ask? But later only I understood that all this problem was because of me.. I had clicked on some pop up window asking for some "update".. that is when this problem arose.. By interrogation my cousin found out this info and finally told the diagnosis that the OS has to be "RE-INSTALLED"....!! (This means my laptop has to be re-born)
I feared so much to convey this to my dad because the last time when i updated from XP to Windows 7, the MS office was gone. We downloaded it again but in vain, because my dad uses only Outlook and doesn't have any other mail id's.. When we installed a new MS Office all his old "official mails" were gone with the old Outlook.. Once again because of my mistake since i did not keep any back up. So when my brother said the dreaded word of "re-installing".. I Literally feared thinking on the consequences. But he told there was no other way than to re-install and asked me to have back up of what ever I required unlike last time.
He said he will turn up the next day meanwhile asked me to keep the back ups ready. Day dawned and went on as well. Evening had also started to show it's face but i never even initiated to keep back ups (Though i sat on the computer for other works). It wasn't that i forgot either. I remembered but dint wanna do it. Not 'cos of laziness but 'cos of apprehension that I might go wrong and that would be an insult for my brother who thought me how to do it. (It could also be taken as not willing to take up risk and responsibility on my shoulders). I knew that the first thing my brother will ask will be about the back ups for which i decided to answer the truth. "No, I didn't do it since i didn't know how to do this"?
But suddenly something dawned from some other side of the head and struck me hard. "Haven't I heard this dialogue somewhere else?" Yeah, I have. I used to take tuitions for my younger brother, especially maths and science tuitions since he was poor in it. (It doesn't me i'm too good in it, it is just because he very young and i knew that i could cope up for that class). At the end of each class, after revising the whole portions I would give him some sums to work out at home so that I understand that he understands the concept. But invariably he turns up next day without doing it. But it wasn't that he did not understand it because he could do the same sums without any help when I'm beside him. I used to scold him, tell him softly and tried all methods but he never did those sums alone. Once i asked him patiently what was his problem? That is when he said the truth, "I do not have the confidence to do it alone. I fear i might go wrong somewhere and that would hurt you because you are one who is teaching me. That would be like insulting you if I haven't understood it properly" I was dumbstruck for few minutes. He was hardly a 12-13 years old boy and never assumed he was so mature enough. But hold on, what does this have to do with my story now? Bingo, It was the same reason i also did not initiate to keep the back up. Thoughts of the advice I gave him was flooding inside me.
It struck me hard that I was also doing the same mistake which my younger brother was doing. I remember advising him, "try doing new things, then only you'll understand yourself better. Take risks, that will mold you better". But I failed doing it myself. I felt ashamed. I had been yet another example of just words and not action. I felt sorry for my li'l bro. There were some thousand emotions running inside me in that second. IT IS DEF"NY A HARD LEARNED LESSON. I promised to myself of never repeating it again. Never advise something which I myself do not do. Not to advise anyone until I cultivate it. (Sounds good na?)
P.S: For those who wanted to know what happened next. Did i then initiate to back-ups?
Here it goes... Of course I did not.... ;) ;) But it was because my another cousin told there was another way to resolve this and need not re-install it again. I smiled to myself.
I was relieved (for 2 reasons) ;) ;) Yippeeeeeeeee....!!
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